not feeling great

Posted in journal on August 25th, 2010 by george

This morning finds me less than 100%. Nonetheless, I am able to perform various tasks. In fact the more I do, the less I dwell on how half-assed I feel! So I will not bore you with the details, but carry on doing the deeds with gusto, until I can no longer stay awake. By which time the way I feel will be of zero importance. I might even feel better!

Click to share this post with friends.

For more great content, remember to subscribe to my RSS feed. Subscribe

I don’t want to die here

Posted in journal on August 22nd, 2010 by george

Last night, over a most enjoyable dinner, some of us fell to talking about plans to find somewhere else to live. Our outlooks and intended courses of action were quite varied, but our motivation and reasons for thinking this way were very similar.

At different times, two of us said, “I dont want to die in….”, followed by our current places of residences. I have lived in the same town on and off for many years. Its a town I know too(?) well, and don’t like living in very much. Several times I have been geared up to take my leave, and something has happened to postpone my departure. Still I remain convinced that the day will come.

I am not at all convinced that leaving will be the antidote to my dissatisfaction. Although there are a number of places I believe I would be happier in, I don’t know that I will ever find somewhere to settle. Perhaps I am doomed to wander back and forth until the time and place of my demise present themselves.

What seems clearer than ever this morning is that for all of us the location is not the problem. If we were living our lives to the best of our ability, doing only the things most important to us, then where we were wouldn’t concern us. I am loathe to admit it, but I remain up to my neck in procrastination.

So although I remain as determined as ever to move, in the mean time I pray for the resolve to change my life right where I am. I can do better, and that being the case, there is no excuse for not doing so.

When death comes to claim me, I pray my house is in order, and I am in the middle of doing things I believe to be good. Then where I am at that time really wont matter.

Click to share this post with friends.

For more great content, remember to subscribe to my RSS feed. Subscribe

Tags: , ,

Maud

Posted in announcements, journal on August 2nd, 2010 by george

MaudMaud is the name coined by my son for our recently purchased car. Maud is an automatic diesel Mercedes, and is a dream come true.

In these dire times it may seem both foolhardy and a little sick to covet and own such a thing. Like many people, despite serious reservations, I have accepted that for the moment I cannot do my thing without a car.

Throughout my life, I have owned old cars. Usually I am the final owner. That being the case, I have mostly had decent old cars. Why drive an old Ford when you can drive an old Volvo? An automatic diesel Mercedes has always seemed to me the very best car I could ever hope for. Now I have one!

So welcome, Maud, into our family. Your superior engineering and the very comfortable ride you provide are much appreciated. We shall do our best to maintain and care for you in the times to come. Long may you run.

Click to share this post with friends.

For more great content, remember to subscribe to my RSS feed. Subscribe

Tags: , , , ,
Get Adobe Flash player